Don't know mind

I used to need to know. To make firm plans. To be on solid ground. I used to try and plan everything. I had spreadsheets for everything. Then I would be upset and often angry when things didn’t go the way I wanted.  But learning to say “I don’t know” has allowed me to relax and enjoy the ride. Life is full of uncertainties. I can make myself crazy with that or I can enjoy the ride.

Before and during the holidays, “don’t know mind” kept me calmer this year than in the past--even though this year was more uncertain than previous ones. I knew that as long as I had presents bought and the pantry full, everything would work out. And it did. It was a fun holiday season with my friends and family and that is what really matters.

Allowing myself not to know is a gift. This idea lets me rest with not knowing what is going to happen, but to know that I will be able handle to whatever comes my way. It relieves me of the need to worry, fret and get into a lot of “what if’s”. It doesn’t mean I don’t plan ahead, but it means I make flexible plans whenever I can—knowing that nothing is certain. It also lets me enjoy the surprises that come with not knowing.

Although, I have to admit, I still love my spreadsheets!